the most boring rant about the most common problem

in a seriously bad mood. feel like it’s all going tits up again and the only person i’ve got is luke (who of course i am very grateful for) but i’ve not seen any of my girl friends in so long, any effort to try and do so is wasted. i know it’s the most cliche thing in the world but i am sick of always being the one trying to make an effort with people. i don’t mean that in a “fuck em all” way because if anyone decides to start trying then i will happily go along with that but i’ve done all i can now and it is actually boring having the same conversation over and over again. every single time i ask it’s the same shit excuses and i feel like i’m the only one who gives a fuck.